Layout: Sunday, January 4, 2009
Journey to self discovery.
Recently i have been asking myself what i want in life? What was i working for? Did what i did to in my CCA really help people become happier even for a while? Was it a short term gratifaction that i wanted or did i wanted to be part of their life? What did i want to do at home? Am i really a good daughter and grand daughter? Am i even a good person?
Am i the person who i really want to be? When i look in the mirror is it ME? Is this ME who i want to be?
Something in me told me there was something in my life i wanted to change.
During the last few days of 2008 i have been trying to find out what. This left me often deep in thought. The last few days were rather tiring for me. Though i did nothing i just felt really tired.
I couldn't focus on anything i did. It was terrible. Everytime someone talked to me nothing much made sense and i preferred to stay quiet.Kinda was in a dream like daze. I supposed Tiffany noticed and my sec sch friends too.
Today it seems to have gotton better.
After some thought, i realised that when i looked into the mirror i wanted to see someone worthwhile. I'll have to think through what i really want in life. Like where i'm heading. I realise i'm just different. I just can't accept the fact to just appreciate everyday of my life. I need to find my purpose and appreciate everything along the way to self discovery. This is just the way i am and i realised DENYING that would just kill me for who I AM.
I want to walk through life knowing i had made a difference. A small one to people who i really care for.. for people at large. I want to at least have an idea its ME i want to see in the mirror and i want to find out WHO is ME.
Its time for a change. To find more confidence in myself. To smile n believe the person i see in the mirror.
And i realised to be ME i have to first believe in me.
Labels: New life
her sweet memory was written @ 9:42 PM