Layout: Thursday, February 26, 2009
Volunteerisim and me.
I never thought much about it but just as a part of self reflection i thought about it for a moment and i really think it was part of feeling good cux i have the ability to help someone. That was before i joined CS CSCC. After going through events with my fellow CSians i realised that its more for the helping the person to feel happy and loved by people around them. Doing CS events with like minded people made me see just how wholeheartedly they gave to the people around them. Its just a miracle how i met these people.From doing these events with them and seeing their passion especially Julia's(when i read her blog) showed me we don't help just to make ourselves feel better( theres nothing wrong with that) but we also help to make others feel good about themself. Its the genuine sincerity in all of it.
I won't i 'm selfless when it comes to helping people. It gives me the joy in making me feel loved n useful when they smile.=D But now i noe helping isn't just about this its so much more. Its not just the " O ya i make them feel happy so i am happy feeling" Its the i really make them feel happy and I FEEL their joy. I finally understoodf the true meaning of volunteering. Well.. at least a progress la. hehe.
I went to borrow a book and social work and WOW. there are many types of social workers like criminal justice, occupational( deal with famil problems), Gerontology( advise about housing and long term care for elderly n caregivers)...
And the most important thing is intregrity.its not easy being a social worker. You need courage to stand up for someone's rights even if you have to take the stand alone or if its against the odds. Its a really meaningful job.
Like there was this school social worker she had to call the parents of a child suspected of child abuse but she sat on it because it was difficult to make the call. Later on she made the call and found out that the mother was a nice person unlikely to cause harm to the child until one day the injuries on the child became so bad that it was a clear sign of abuse. She immediately made the call and did what was correct even though it was hard to testify against the mother and stuff like that. She said: I could have stopped it earlier but i didn't..Well finally she did.
This reminded me of my FO quotation calling. I hated making calls to the suppliers who i could gt vv pek chek with. Something so fast can settle so long HAVEN settle. Gets on my nerves. calling time and again. Sometimes i preferred to sit on it. Calling 3 suppliers was not something i liked to do=.=" But then ya. u stil have to do it. Its something called responsibility. LOLS. anyways. it reminded me calling n facing something u noe is right bt nt pleasant can be difficult. It would be so much easier to say ALL the supplier nv answer. Ask sean do everything or quit. But no. we should do what is the best for all. Ya.
In all, sometimes busy helping others i neglect the family members around me who seem to need some kind of help now. With their own issues and feelings. Something i did not notice because it doesn't really show. But actually our family needs our love and help the most. They should always come first because that's what family means.
I love my family, but sometimes i neglect them. Sometimes i am too tired or i'm irritated at he stuff my sister tells me... always abt boys... ( well i'm nt tt into guys. i just want a good decent one to love me-- and that is fate=D) or angry at my dad maybe even hurt by him sometimes . Still i love my family. Because they love me too. I am selfish i dunno if i can love them they they don't love me( Like some people's parents) Then again all parents love their children( Let's nt include sadistic people).
I should help in the housework. Seriously. i hate them and i am trying not to sulk while doing them. Still trying. I always smile while doing them bt i am SULKIN like mad inside. ( Which is why i am either gonna be a CAREER woman or a tai tai -- then i would go be social worker or kindergarden teacher NEVER a housewife) that would KILL my soul.
I should listen to my sister more attentively. Accompany her when i can. Help my family members first. Protect them with all my heart and trust in them. Always believe that whatever shortcoming that can be overlooked are accepted and those that are too horredous areaccepted as they are and try to change them, never once giving up( My sister long case).
I am sorry daddy and mummy.. i will be a better person from now on. I wil try.
To my CS family thank u n love u guys.=D
her sweet memory was written @ 8:59 PM