Layout: Saturday, May 16, 2009
Mistakes
Above all i have changed a lot. Since Sec school to JC to poly.
Many of my friends felt choosing poly when i could have continued on in JC2 last yr , was a wasted choice. But i now i really think i made a good choice.
Time flies i've learnt a lot from SP. Mistakes made, friendships forged, frustrations in CSCC all made me a better person.
Throughout my SP poly life i somehow feel that i don't dare to face it when my friends are really nice to me.My class, my cca friends, sec sch frens, ... Its been a long time since i felt anything was real. And i really hurt a impt friend of mine cux of my insensitivity. So long since it mattered to anyone. Now when it really does ,i failed to see it.
These few days i thought: i was really sad when someone treated me that way in the past. It became such a habit. I didn feel anything anymore. And then i realised people and situations have changed.
So many things to realise.... true or false care for me? Where were they when i wanted them to be there. Was i expecting too much. Its nature to be selfish, that 's what people always say. But really beautiful r/s are not. It can happen. u just have to noe when.
Smiling through all the way in a conversation i had a a shop, a random lady asked me to let people noe what i am thinking. A bit magical.
I just didn c the point. I didn like pulling ppl in with my messy thoughts.
Every point in life is a learning spot. Theres always something new to learn. Pasts to let go, memories to cherish...
People in my life i will tresure even more now..=)
Labels: SchOol
her sweet memory was written @ 10:22 PM